Lack Of Self Control

Why am I finding this so hard to update?  Maybe I'm not facing my own reality?

So....I went to the Doc and lo and behold, my cholesterol did go down.  I think it's because of these Red Yeast rice capsules I've been taking.  It didn't go down by much but at least it's down.  However, I've gained weight.  I have known this was happening but I'm so unmotivated to get my ass moving.  I've gone from working out 5-6 times a week to about 2-3.  I still can't figure out what my problem is?  I have an idea:  laziness and work.  Sometimes I'm just so comfy in my house that I can't muster up the energy to go and work out.  Other times I'm motivated to go and then work gets busy and I just lose the urge to get out and get moving.  I keep hoping that every day will be the day I get my butt in gear.  Still holding out for that day.

One aspect I can be proud of is my cutting down of my beloved baked goods.....and ice cream intake.  I now limit myself to one sweet treat a day.  This is HUGE for me.  There were days (I'm embarrassed to admit) that I would eat 3-4.  And I'm not talking Oreo-size.  I'm talking 3-4 cupcakes.....BIG cookies.....brownies.....pieces of pie.  You get the idea.  Well, after my weight gain and my eye opening high cholesterol I vowed to cut down.  I can't go cold turkey (I tried....and the Doc wants me to but I just can't) but I can limit and I will/have.

That's about it.  Every day is a struggle but I realize that I have to make changes in my life as my health depends on it.  I'm no spring chicken.  I'm an old goose.

LOSE ME!