Tough Day

I honestly am at a loss for words. I'm having a very tough time today because I feel very lost....sad....frustrated. Today's the first day that when I think about what's ahead for me I actually have to stop myself from crying. It's all becoming a reality for me. It's not that it wasn't before but today, after I met my boss to do my exit interview, it really hit me.

I have loved working at Midway. I have liked my life so much over these past two years. I've not only enjoyed MOST of the people that I've worked with but truly enjoyed my job. The location (for me) was amazing. I've centered my whole life these past two years around Midway. And now.....I have nothing.

I try not to be a drama queen. Really. But I feel what I feel and with this loss of a job and not having a new job lined up I am truly devastated. My life is really going to change whether I like it or not.

I have tried to remain positive over these last few months and have done an OK job. It's now my hope that I can maintain some sort of hope but it will be tough.

To give you a summary of where I am: Got an email from the gaming co. I'd love to work for and they just can't make anything happen right now but said there's a good possibility that something will open up early next year. I told them to please not forget about me.

Called the guy from the spirits company AGAIN and of course there's no word from him. If you peruse the JOG archives you'll see that on more than one occasion he has told me that I will be getting an offer (was supposed to start this past Tuesday). Crazy....just crazy. He has been the source of most of my unhappiness. I just can't get over how I've been treated by him. So tough.

No word as of yet from the Ad agency but my feeling is that it may not work out. I'd love to work for them but money and hours needed may not work out.

So.....I may have nothing. Nothing to show for my almost 3 months of looking for work. I'm really shocked. I can find people jobs and I can get jobs. But I guess I can't get one now.

Tomorrow I become a statistic. Not one that I'm proud of. From here on out I really need to mind my pennies. I've been cutting back on a lot and I may need to cut back even more. Time will tell.

I feel very lost.....sad....frustrated.

HIRE ME!